There are so many things to rant about, sigh~

I've tried to be a better person for the past 2 days, seems like people are taking advantage of me. Seems like it's not that good to be a good person, but at least I tried. And I'm learning to be a better person. But why does it seem to be so difficult? Why do I always encounter friendship problem? Is there something wrong with my character or personalities? When I said I'm fine with people who ignore me, and I'm used to it, I'm not. To be honest, I'm not okay with it. I'm not an attention-seeker but I do want people to pay some attention to me. I wonder how (you) feel for the past 3 months, it must be a torture for you. Next, I wanted to be more tolerance, but I can't. Some jokes are really mean, though I know they're jokes. Some jokes are offensive, though I know they're jokes. You can call me petty or what, but they're really very mean and offensive. Try be in my shoes and feel it. You won't like it, I swear. In fact, nobody likes it. And I finally know how (you) feel, I'm sorry. Next, humans are selfish by nature. But I don't get it, (he) doesn't act like the way (you) do, even though both of you achieved almost the same results. And (he)'s the one that I've bad impression with. It's useless if you're good at everything but lack of a good personalities and character.

Finally, I still love my life even though I know the current path that I'm taking is tough. I can never go back to the time when I've to decide whether I'm going to TP or RP. It's the past that made me to who I am now, and I can't go back anymore. Nevertheless, I've friends that always by my side and I'll treat them like my family.

Studies is my priority now so I won't think of all this for the time being.