Can you see the real me?

Everyday, I'll bring a fake smile and tried to be hyper and happy in school so that people around me can be happy the whole day. But it didn't work. In fact, I'm just a nuisance of everything.

Yes Sha, you're right. I am the troublemaker. I brought nothing but conflicts between us. Where has the six of us gone to? Do you still remember the six of us used to go out together? If you're sad, then I'm depressed! If it weren't me, things wouldn't turn out this way. If it weren't me, maybe the six of us would still be together. I want to rewind back again, to where we would always chitchat together. But now? You have your own clique, same to me. But this wasn't what I want. I want us to be back together again.

Maybe people do changed, maybe I'm just that fucking bitch who breakup other people's friendship. Yes I'm a bitch. I'm selfish and inconsiderate, don't give a fuck care for others. I like it when everyone is together, hate it when my friends go out with other friends. I'm an asshole, a stupid bitch or whatever you want to call. Hell, just fuck off from my life. I don't want to care anymore. My studies sucks, friends don't trust each other anymore and just go their fucking own separate ways as and when they like, parents just a total shit fuck. I might as well quit school and forgo that fucking O Level or better, just end my life.

And people, don't bother to tell me anything anymore. I'm such a failure, I cannot do anything to help others. What can I do? Sit there and listen only. I felt so useless everytime people ask me how or very sad and yet I couldn't do anything to help them or at least cheer them up. Fuck la, why must everything happened together at the same time!!!!!!!!!!

Oh fuck, I don't know what to do now. Can someone tell me?

FUCK OFF FROM MY LIFE AND DON'T BOTHER TO TALK TO ME!


Oh shit, I feel like crying now!