Vanessa forced me to write one. So bhb, hehe. :P
Just kidding, I love her to the max okaysxz! :D

Fuck, I'm so damn sad now!
But thanks Sha for being my listening ear, :)

Am I a weird person?
I find myself one weird person lei. Coz I don't communicate with others sometimes, and even if I do, I'll have nothing to talk about. I'm not like my friends, where they have tons and tons of common topics to talk about. If I'm in a group of people, I'll be the only one whose damn quiet. But I don't mind, really I don't mind. Coz at least I still can listen to what they'll say and laugh with them. But sometimes I'll feel that I'm being left out but I know is I myself who make myself damn pathetic. I tried to be sociable but couldn't. Something stopped me. I don't know what's wrong with me. I can't do a single shit right. I always screw things up, screw people up, screw my life up.


Stupid! I missed the chance of talking to him just now. Fuck me man, stupid! Sigh, now I'd regretted. But what's the point of crying over a spilled milk? Fucking useless me. I know he's talking to me but I just couldn't face him. I couldn't overcome myself. I've no confidence in myself. I lack of courage, lack of confidence, lack of everything. I wanted to tell him my thinkings, my feelings so much. But when I come face to face with him, I just become a stupid wall. Don't dare to talk and face him. I wanted to, but I lacked of courage. Just what the fuck am I thinking!

I guess I'm just a failure for my whole life.


Ah, 'O' 水准华文口试会考 is tomorrow! Shit, I haven't like try practicing la. zzz, tomorrow comfirm die one. x.x
Wish me luck kk. (:

Heh Sha, guess what I'm feeling now?
:D (: ): )': D: -.- >.< ^^

我们真的结束了吗?